Around midnight one foggy evening, I tried to connect with the presence of God, as I stood on the edge of a bluff overlooking the Columbia River far below. Clouds covered the gorge and leveled themselves so that it seemed as though I could step out and walk upon the surface. My life also lay before me like a vast journey of undulating ups-and-downs, some joys yes, but lots of heartaches. Did I even want to play the game?